Almost Let You Stay

[tape saturation, subtle analog warmth] [parallel compression on drums and vocals] [sidechained synths ducking under kick] Verse 1 I still laugh when you say my name Like it hasn’t been heavy before I still catch myself listening For the sound of you at my door I don’t flinch when you get too close That surprised me more than it should I thought I’d learned how to shut that down Guess my heart never really could Pre-Chorus I don’t need saving I don’t need proof I just don’t trust What hope can do Chorus I still have heart, I just don’t spend it Like it’s something I can replace I’ve survived every bad decision I’m not sure I’d survive one more mistake So if I hesitate, it’s not rejection It’s me trying not to break I almost let you stay Verse 2 You don’t promise me anything And somehow that feels kind You don’t push, you don’t pull at me You just sit with what’s mine That’s the part that scares me most How safe it feels right now I know how quickly safe can turn Into something I can’t get out Pre-Chorus I don’t doubt you I doubt me I know what hope Has done to me Chorus I still have heart, I just don’t lend it Like it won’t remember your face I’ve rebuilt from things I trusted I’m not sure I could do that again So if I draw a line between us It’s not that I don’t care I almost let you stay Bridge I’m not cold I’m not gone I’m just tired of being strong I don’t want another lesson Written where my trust belongs Final Chorus I still have heart, it’s beating louder Every time you say my name But I’ve learned how close love gets Before it turns into pain So if I walk away in silence Please don’t take it the wrong way I almost let you stay Outro I almost let you stay