Beneath the Surface

[vocal mature_female_lead, full_bodied_vocals, steady_phrasing, clear_diction, grounded_chest_voice, gritty_but_sung, firm_phrase_endings, word_forward_delivery] [tempo slow_heavy_pulse, doom_weight, steady_dragging_groove] [entry low_piano_intro, dark_string_swell, heavy_guitar_entry, centered_intro, mono_centered_intro] [instrumentation low_tuned_guitars, heavy_rhythm_guitars, thick_bass, tom_driven_drums, dark_piano, gothic_strings, orchestral_string_support, sustained_guitar_weight, rounded_low_end] [production dark_melodic_metal, gothic_alt_rock_foundation, orchestral_rock_weight, analog_warmth, tape_saturation, human_band_pocket, natural_push_pull_groove, varied_hit_strength, slight_take_variation, organic_band_motion, gradual_chorus_bloom, final_chorus_bloom] [mood heavy, wounded, dramatic, burdened, survival_pressure] [mix natural_drum_dynamics, vocal_forward, piano_present, strings_supporting, heavy_low_end, smooth_high_end, balanced_top_end, balanced_stereo_field] [section intro_verse_pre_chorus_chorus_verse_pre_chorus_chorus_bridge_verse_final_chorus_outro] [Verse 1] My hands shake as I reach for the pills again Count them twice, put the bottle back down The bathtub's running cold, I forgot to turn it off These four walls know my secrets now Every breath feels like borrowed time While I practice letting go [Pre-Chorus] The weight keeps pulling me down Down where the silence lives [Chorus] I'm sinking into something I can't name Where the pressure feels like home And giving up tastes sweet There's a comfort in the fall When you stop fighting the current Stop fighting at all [Verse 2] My mother calls but I let it ring The dishes pile up like tiny monuments To all the things I used to care about My bed becomes an ocean And I'm learning how to drown With my eyes wide open [Pre-Chorus] The weight keeps pulling me down Down where the questions end [Chorus] I'm sinking into something I can't name Where the pressure feels like home And giving up tastes sweet There's a comfort in the fall When you stop fighting the current Stop fighting at all [Bridge] But maybe drowning's just another way to breathe Maybe this darkness has its own kind of light The water's warm when you stop struggling And I'm tired of staying afloat [Verse 3] I open all the windows, let the cold air in Feel my skin remember what it's like to feel The pills stay in their bottle The water drains away Sometimes surrendering means choosing to stay [Final Chorus] I'm rising from the place I couldn't name Where the pressure felt like home And giving up tasted sweet But there's power in the climb When you choose to fight the current Choose to fight for time [Outro] My hands steady as I put the bottle away These four walls hold my victory now