Feels Familiar

[Female Vocal] I tell myself I’m ready, but that’s never really true. It settles in my thinking the way it always has. I hate how fast I start predicting the start of something bad. Chorus I hate that it feels familiar, this rush to the darkest side. I turn each quiet situation into a warning in my mind. I wish it didn’t feel familiar, the way I step away inside. I live inside the worst-case version and never wait to see I’m fine. Verse 2 A pause in conversation and I assume the worst. I write myself the reason I must have caused the hurt. I list out every failure I’ve ever kept in store. It’s easier to blame myself than risk not knowing anymore. Chorus I hate that it feels familiar, this rush to the darkest side. I turn each quiet situation into a warning in my mind. I wish it didn’t feel familiar, the way I step away inside. I live inside the worst-case version and never wait to see I’m fine. Bridge If every slight not-knowing gets tagged as “here it goes wrong,” how will I recognize a moment that might have held something strong? Final Chorus I hate that it feels familiar, this rush to the darkest side. I turn each quiet situation into a warning in my mind. I wish it didn’t feel familiar, this way I step away inside. I want to stop living in versions where hurt is all I ever find.